Today's song: "Lifeline" by Angels & Airwaves

Aww, man~ I was looking back at some old posts from back 3 years ago. And man, do I miss those times. I miss my old buddies~ But I still do talk to some of them, after all this time! ^-^


Silvia~ [sisi30019]~ I still talk to Silvia!! Actually, our 3 year "anniversary" (XD) was back in June, lol. We've had quite some ups and downs with eachother, needless to say, and a couple periods where we hadn't talked to eachother for some months, yet we still managed to get back together and stay good friends. ^-^ Though we don't get to talk much anymore~ she isn't allowed to use the internet at home anymore. >.>;; BUT! Yeah, I should call her some time. We also started writing eachother letters this summer! I miss her a lot. She's the closest thing I have to a best friend, really. I wish I could talk to her now, like we always used to talk.... ~I love her.

Nouta~ [insertnamehere]~ Yeah, I can't remember what her old xanga's name was called. XD But yes, I still talk to her on AIM!! :3 I think I've known her, also, for almost 3 years. Yeah, she's still insane as ever. >.>

Nicole~ [kckng88]~ I still talk to Nicole, occasionally, on here and on myspace. :D I WUV YEW NICCCCOOOOOOLE! She said I could live with her when, and if, I finally move to NY after college. XD SO YESSSS.... <33

Justin~ [zeromaster435]~ Dude, I just realized tonight, after I was looking through old posts, that I've known him for 3 years this September! O_O;; I didnt even know it! I didn't know I knew him for that long, sheesh. >.> ... Yeah, he's still fun to scare and aggravate. :'D How the hell did he survive with my old psycho-ness and yaoi fetish?! lmao ... well ok, I'm still a bit psycho. <.< ....... >.>

M.B~ [majinbulgeta]~ I havn't talked to MB in forever. We stopped really talking to eachother like a year and a half ago. :/ Or maybe 2 years? I dunno. D: But I think she was one of my first friends on here!! Awww, now she's all popular on DeviantART with her yaoi drawings and such. ... oh, and her cosplay. XD Hahaahaha, I remember she used to be so crazy. :P .... well not as crazy as me. D:<

Emma~ [neko-karasu] Umm, I'm not sure if that's her xanga name, but yeah! Actually, I never talked to Emma on xanga! But I kind of knew her at the time, because I remember when MB and me would talk, and she told me when she started to really like Emma..... awww. XD And then they started dating. But yeah, it wasn't until a year ago in April that I started talking to her. D: 'Cause she saw some GokuxVegeta pic that I drew on my Deviantart account. XD Hahaha, I never thought that I would actually get to know her.

Alma~ [suposablymizz_nicegirl]~ Oh oh oh I just found out how I met Alma! :D When I was looking at old posts in Dec. '05, she commented me saying she found my site through Silvia. XD ...yea. I thought I started talking to her first, but I guess not. D: ... I still talk to her occasionally on deviantart and myspace. :3 HI ALMA! *waves*

Mandy~ [hootaru]~ Duuuude, I dunno what happened to Mandy. ;_; *sobs* Aww, I miss Mandy. She was so sweet! XD Last time she was on Gaia was..... hmm, I dont even remember- but it's been about a year and a half sinse I last talked to or heard from her. =( I havnt even seen her on AIM..... hmm..... I should add her s/n to my list. >.> If I'm lucky, maybe I'll see her on some time?

Alyssa~ [fruitsbsk28]~ I remember Alyssa said something about subscribing to me because we had the same name. XD I havn't talked to her in a long time. :o But I have her on myspace..... maybe I should ask her how she's doing. >.>

Amanda~ [raineangel10]~ Holy hell, I havnt talked to her in ages. D: She last updated in June '06..... but I havnt really talked to her sinse... I dunno when. Maybe 2.5 years? yeah, i didnt really know her well, but I remember she was M.B's first girlfriend, I believe! ^.^ hahahhaaa... yeah. XD

Diana~ [guitarbaby72]~ She's M.B's best friend, I believe. ^.^ I dont talk to her much, though I just talked to her on deviantart art the other day, asking what's up! :D I dont remember why I befriended her.... I guess I just saw her on M.B's xanga. D:

Amber~ [commander_amber]~ I dunno, I think I met her through either Nicole or M.B. <.< But yeah, I remember when we would talk on AIM and I'd make her laugh a lot. XD And and she made her new xanga "Commander Amber" 'cause mine was General Alyssa. heheheee~ But then she dissapeared for several months last year, because she got in trouble from her xanga. :/ BUT then she found and added me on Facebook! ^-^ So we talk a bit, still. I just wish she'd get on AIM! D:<

Allison~ [xxgravityplaysfavoritesxx]~ I met Allison through Amber, and we would talk sometimes on AIM! :3 And I have her on Facebook now, but I havnt really talked to her in quite a while.....



Wow, I didn't know there were that many people. xD
But we all were in our little group! Nouta knew M.B and Silvia and Nicole~ Nicole knew M.B, Mandy, Amanda, and slightly Silvia~ Amber knew Allison, M.B, and Nicole~ M.B knew Nicole, Amber, Diana, Amanda, Diana, Mandy and slightly Silvia. XD Annnnnd yeah.... XD Well Silvia got to kinda meet them, from me. :3 ..... YEAH, I SAID IT, HO.

Yeah, so we were all pretty much in our mutual, yet scattered group. :3

Hahahaheee~



And then I still talk to a couple people, occasionally, from a forum I used to go to 4 years ago~ But we've all definitely split up sinse then. The forum was deleted about 2 years ago after being hacked. >.< But I still chat with my buddy Dylan from then, and sometimes even Erikk~ which those two are good friends.

And and and I remember my very first forum-place, from 5 years ago, omg. XD It was a Candidate for Goddess website. Me, Jac, Mike, and a few others used to post on that place. Jac was like my first, close "internet" friend. ^-^ Awww~ we were good buddies. XD I still get emails from her sometimes. :3




ANYWAY! GOD~ enough typing. >_>
I'm sure I've bored you to death.
Actually, I'm sure you didn't even read all of it.
So wtf do I care? XD
If you did.... then wow, that's amazing.

OK! Tootles! :D

~ a l y s s a

HAH! YES! I think I have finally figured out what I want to do in life! ..hopefully.

Ok, here it is: Well, I'm going to attend UC (the university of cincinnati), and probably major in art and minor in psychology. And some time after I graduate, I want to move either to Los Angeles or New York City and work my way in to fashion photography! I would probably, honestly, really enjoy that. :D Though I know it won't be easy......

But see, I really wanted to move and live in L.A. ...but it's expensive as hell to live there, (even around there). It's crazy! I was looking up homes that are around $150,000 to $170,000..... and it's really crazy. The only homes I could find in that price range were small, older homes in not-so-nice neighborhoods. They're very small, one level, and most of them had ghetto gates around them. >_> God, some of them even had bars on the windows- which scared me. I would die if I had to live in an insecure, scary neighborhood. O_O;

So that sucks..... and that's why I'm thinking that New York would be best to start out in... even though I really want to live in L.A. .___. .... But I shall do that one day, after I've gotten good into photography and fashion and start to make good money. >:3 ...yessss. I think New York is a lot cheaper..... is it not? Plus it's like fashion/art central, isn't it?? Hah. There's so many designer shops and stores up there. It'd be an easier place to find places that will be taking some photographers. :]

Yeeee, I'm excited!! ugh, all i want to do is be successful. ;_;
Also, I was gonna ask about it with Silvia next time i can talk to her. :3 I was gonna ask her if she'd wanna come live with me in New York. :3 I dunno.... she'll probably freakin have a whole life by then, and I dont know what she plans on doing after college, but we'll see. .__.  And she hardly lives far from L.A, so then maybe we could live in L.A near eachother. ;D That'd be soooo cool. ^-^ *freaks out*



Oh oh oh, and one last thing!! XD
Ok, I really need a job. And I was thinking of either getting an application from our local coffee shop (Kidd Coffee), working in the photo place in Walgreens, or working at The Y (the ymca. :D ...or whatever). I think I'd really rather work at the Y. ....though I dont know what I could do. <.<

So there you have it.
MORE CRAP!

YEAH! :D

~ a l y s s a

Yes, less than 2 weeks left of school for me! :] Aah, I'm sort of stressing out this week. I have two freakin projects due! One for English, due friday, and one for Art- due next tuesday. Ugh..... I hate projects. But other than that~ The weekend was fun. I hung out with Shannon again. XD We watched some movies~ :] Aaand let's see..... I might be visiting NC this weekend!! Mom really wants to visit~ to see my nana and uncle~ whom we had to stay with before we moved here to Ohio~ and we all got into a huge fight before we left~ because my uncle is an asshole. But luckily, I stood up for myself. :] (i think i might have posted that story previously in posts way back when. D:)~ SO! If we DO visit.... I definitely wouldnt want to have to stay there (though my mom is). So I'll definitely be staying at a friend's house- probably Shauna's. And maaan oh man... has some weird shit happened at my old school sinse I moved! I was totally trippin out yesterday after stuff that Shauna and Jenay were telling me about them~ but we wont go there!

So here I am, hoping to God that we will be able to visit~ we would be leaving this thursday, and then coming back on monday. :] And and and I sooooo am going to go to my old school on friday and just hang out with my old theatre teacher all day- (he usually doesnt mind when old students come in and hang out for a while. but i wonder if he would mind if i was there all day? :/) Aah, that'd be so awesome!! It'd be just like I planned!! Ooh, I miss my old school sooo much!!! But then again, if I could choose to move back- would I? ....no. I like the people Ive met here at my new school, and what not. And......... well I'm really sad because... all my senior friends back at my old school are graduating this year- (obviously)! So it'd be so boring next year........ let's see. Emily graduated early, Shauna will be graduating, Scott, Donovan, Aaron, Brittney, all the awesome older theatre kids that I luffed, Keira, umm.... Dalle (my old best friend) told me that she's quitting school after this year is up. ._. ...she told me that the only thing that was really keeping her in was me. ...which was sweet, but she needs to stay in school. I mean what the heck is she going to do with her life? I dont even think she's going to at least a little community college.... it's rather sad.

So many people have left this year- and my old group broke up. :/ My good old friend Tori moved back to Hawaii last summer, Dana is now homeschooled, Tatiana moved at the beginning (but she came back this semester! :D), Roxanne dropped out, Michael moved back in october; Lauren W. moved-, came back- and then dropped out; Kris P. moved..... ugh, it's just so weird. Highschool really is different......... it feels like middle school and elementary was so.... simple. And now.......... meh. Also, I'm such a nostalgic person, soooo... I get like this anyway. :I And meeting freshman isnt all that great. I like having older friends better.

This year has definitely changed on me. I wonder if I'll be able to talk to Silvia during the summer? I hardly get to talk to her now~ she says she isn't alowed on the internet at her house- (she can only get on at school- and sometimes when she goes to the mall). hmm.. i should ask her about that. :/ Her AIM isnt really working either, so that's lame....... Aah, Silviaaaa~ ♥ Can you believe we're going to be seniors? It's so weird... looking back on the past, and looking back on when we started our freshman year.....................


So.
There was something i was gonna say, but now I cant remember! Eh.... I'ma bring my camera wiff me if i get to visit NC! :D And I'ma take lotsa pics!! ^_^ and and... yeah! Okay, I think that's about it~

a l y s s a
I look around, and notice that so many of my close friends are changing; changing badly. As for me, I have stayed the same- besides the small things, of course, that people usually grow out of or change anyway as they grow older. But peraps I will stay true to myself and stay good unlike those who are changing into something wrong, and just sit there, bullshitting not only other people, but themselves. Perhaps I will be the one to make a true difference, and be the one who succeeds. At least I dont let dumb shit influence me.
" Coming down, a world turn over
                             Angels fall without you there
          And I go on as you get colder
                    Or are you someone's prayer? "